Feeling So Wrecked

I woke up this morning feeling incredibly wrecked. I felt so down that I couldn't manage to be grateful to be given another day of living on this very planet called earth. I feel guilty now. Thank Allah it's holiday so that I don't need to go to school and teach. I can't imagine how I could be a good teacher in such situation. I will feel guilty even more.

I remember couples of years ago I watched Oprah on TV. She was talking about how you appreciate your life by mentioning three good things that happen to you each day. And I've been trying to do that since then, though sometimes I miss a couple of days. Now that I feel completely wrecked and lost, I'll try to remember extraordinary things about me that always make me feel better. Please never see me as some selfish person who thinks she's the best and deserves the best. NO trust me, I AM NOT LIKE THAT! It's just that I feel really insecure at the moment. I'm still that silly young lady who tries to enjoy life to its fullest.

Here we go:

• I am blessed with a group of warm, caring, funny though sometimes a bit weird people whom I call family.
• I have those outstanding and darling people around me who inspires me in some big deals of life and I can proudly call them MY BESTIES.
• All my pupils love me and enjoy having me as their teacher.
• I am blessed with a sweet fragile look that makes everybody want to come and protect me in such a harsh time (it's not my personal opinion, I know some people who think that way and I guess they're right).
• I know exactly the way to be stunningly gorgeous on my own way.
• I am a tough woman who managed to get back on my own feet after such a hard and painful moment of desperation.
• I have above average thinking ability especially about education and English.
• Some old buddies said I've got this great personality and low profile.
• This is the best out of all-I am given the chance to reach my whole life dream which are visiting England and taking my master's degree. YES!!!

Now I feel a lot better and secure. I believe Allah has planned everything so amazingly and perfectly so that I gotta stop worrying. Just take my time. xxx